Thinking through the concept of "seeing as touching" as articulated in the work of Laura Marks, Maurice Merleau-Ponty, and queer filmmaker Barbara Hammer, this article uses a researchcreation approach involving somatic and visual prompts to explore questions around intimacy, visuality, touch, and distance. Building on the concepts of desirability hierarchies and economies of care, it investigates connections between fatphobia and feelings of desire and disgust, highlighting the complex role that sensations can play in reproducing and reinforcing normative body standards and white supremacist power structures. The article includes still photographs from a video-based exploration of a fat "haptic visuality" and suggests a connection between the generative ambiguity such an approach to making images can allow for and the inherent transgressive potential of fat embodiment. * Pre-pandemic, in a dance class. We are doing a warm-up exercise that I've started calling "putting my skin on": running my hands all over my body, waking up my surface, reminding myself where I begin and where I end. When my hands glide over the bumpy backs of my thighs, it's like I'm shining a flashlight on them while the rest of the room is suddenly plunged into darkness. Every dimple thrown into stark relief, hypervisible. I feel a rush of shame. I keep going. I tell myself: "I get to have a skin." And, as happens every time, when I have stopped running my hands over my skin, it feels more alive than only a few minutes before, and more porous: a boundary, but a connection, too.