Researcher as cognitive activist and the mutually useful conversation Denzin (2010: 25) tells us that "the perspectives and experiences of those persons who are served by social justice programs must be grasped, interpreted, and understood, if solid, effective, applied programs are to be created". This point is perhaps a poignant starting place to (re)ask what research is for in our current socio-political juncture. Do we indeed wish educational, sociological and political research to be part of the process that creates, as Denzin assumes it should, 'solid, effective and applied programs' for change? If so, as researchers we need to (re)think our positions and our aims. This autoethnographic paper was born out of the thinking about research methods from research that focussed on the pedagogy in the London Occupy movement in 2011-12 and in particular the encampment outside St. Paul's Cathedral in the centre of London, UK. The thoughts that are contained within this paper were begun through the process of understanding my own positionality as an educational researcher working both outside a social movement and in solidarity with it. Understanding how to create critical distance from the happenings witnessed whilst attempting to assist the movement from the position of researcher and academic activist. This is not an easy place to live and this kind of work often stands one side or the other of the interstice between hope and despair, solidarity and frustration, and love and bitterness. In this paper I will make use of my fieldwork from the original research to assist the reader to understand how the thoughts were brought to life during that freezing cold winter of 2011-12 on the pavements outside St. Paul's, by a ragtag group of committed people trying to change